so its been since september i updated a journal and since 2006 that i updated my art... i fuckin suck. its hard when you're not motivated to do anything and everything you do do you dont want the world to see. whatever.

anyways...ive been doing a lot of self searching and a lot of getting my shit together. i feel like the art institute of pittsburgh is my best bet for college. at least im trying to get all my transcripts in...yeah...all 4 of them ~_~

sigh. i want to be in a better way right now....at least on the me level. my life is fine. i just wish i was about 40 pounds healthier and 40 levels smarter and more talented in so many areas. once again...whatever, im getting there....on a brighter note...i lost 15 pounds? ive been eating healthy and working out regularly. so yeah....im on this constant wave of self progress that is crawling along, but someday ill reach a satisfying stop.

love life? confusing as fuck.
one day he only likes me as a friend, the next he likes me. i dont get him. some days he can go fuck himself, others, he is one of my best friends. lol....so....its progressing....maybe?

everything is fucking going at a crawl...love, art, and my health.
i feel FUCKING RESTLESS.

mays coming up....ill be home only half of a weekend out of 4...i cant wait ~_~